Acceptance is the meaning of my name

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I accept that I won’t always be in control of situations.

I accept things won’t always go my way.

I accept that there will be days when I am on a natural high and days I feel  completely under.

I accept the fact that sometimes I have to wait a little longer.

I accept and consent hard lessons I have to learn and endure.

I accept that I am not always right.

I accept myself,  flaws and all. Heck – I flaunt and flirt in my illusive perfection.

I accept my weight, nose and every crooked detail of my body I often wish to change.

I accept the fact that who I am today is already part of history and 10 years from now I will be someone completely different.

I accept and own every mistake I have ever made.

I accept and consent for people to come and go in my life in their due season.

I accept you for who you choose to be.

From my day of  birth, I was received and accepted, loved and adorned and that will be my life’s trajectory.

My name is Samkelwe which means acceptance, it took a while, but I accept who God has intended for me to be.

 

 

 

Unconscious Double Life

The people I am living for are not even aware that I am.

I sense sadness everytime they ask me to do something ( I feel is extra) for them, I tend to sulk and groan.

Isn’t how I am living enough? How much more of me do they want?

I’m tired.

I can’t explain myself to them.

They don’t even know this is how I feel. I look in the mirror and don’t see Me.

Who am I? What happens when they leave? Who will I be.

I’m empty.

Is this blame shifting? Am I removing my responsibility of proving and showing my true colours?

Is this some kind of insecurity magnifying itself and substituting me?

I’m broken.

Subconscious just returned my pen, she was writing for me.

I’m not even upset. I see truth in this or is it a half truth from the other me?

I’m torn.

I’ve mentioned “me” so often as if there is a distinction.

I hope I’m not too old to start defining she. I don’t want to confuse people.

I think it’s safe to say I have failed me.

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