I don’t want to EVER miss being single.
I don’t want to have a bucket list that has to be compromised and incomplete.
I don’t want to feel regretful of my chosen partner.
I don’t want to run away or avoid him
I want to be ready, eager and willing to sacrifice, to compromise and be selfless.
I want to be free.
I was given an arrival date. I came on earth alone to fulfill my purpose.
I need to awaken things on my own. I need to know me completely.
How do I do that if I’m always reacting and rationalizing things according to this being who is always around me?
I need to be alone, to hear God speak.
I need to be a whole being before someone takes a little bit of me.
There is no such thing as “he completes me.”
I need to be strong and work through my strengths and weaknesses
I need to be scared to know courage.
I need to feel beautiful intrinsically.
I need to fully rely on my capabilities.
I know I have been made fearfully and wonderfully.
I know he’s out there waiting, wishing, dreaming and praying for me.
But right now I need to be alone, and do ME.