I have no words.
I have nothing to say.
All I have are feelings.
That’s what I shall describe.
The feeling of not being enough.
The feeling of unimportance.
I’m not worthy of being fought for.
Besides my words, I have a greater loss.
Loss of respect, loss of fortitude.
So all I had, (which were my feelings) are gone.
There’s some pain.
My heartbeat thumps harder, my bones rattle, my body slouches. I feel lifeless.
My aorta, atria and ventricles burst open. I’m bleeding.
I’m sore. Sore for you too. Your blindness hurts. The fact that you couldn’t see me wave as I drowned.
You chose to purge me. Silly me thought you were dead to me, meanwhile I was a long gone fossil to you.
If not, then why? I have so many questions.